Lil Shantell

It's my birthdayy...but there's tears

2010-03-13T05:45:00.000-08:00

Today is my birthday 14 March 2010 and today

Is also 1 year since the day i first met you

The day you changed my life within seconds

I can't take the pain within me

I wanna see you

Not being with you on this day

Is really effecting me

I missyou like so much

I feel like i dont need presents

I dont need a celebration

Because the only one i want is you

On my birthday....

I miss you kattae

your love...

2009-12-27T10:55:00.000-08:00

Your love will always be a

memory a dream

that will always linger within me

Something I will never forget

Even when there's happiness

around me the memories will haunt me

This love was the most special

among the rest bec

it made the most memories

and tears never to forget

Give up...

2009-12-27T10:50:00.000-08:00

I thought everything would be better

I thought things would go well

I thought everything had end

But i guess it all got worst

Baby no matter how much we try

Nothin seems to be better

No one wanna see us together

Every moment I shared with you the past

9 months

will always be in my heart

A memory I will never forget

even if I try...

Everythings over...

But memories will never fade

The love will always stay in my heart

I l0ve you for the last time

I miss you & will always do

Happy 9th month Anniversary baby

2009-12-19T21:11:00.000-08:00

I've fallen in love with you & I'll never let you go

I love you more than anyone,I just had to let you know

And if you ever wonder why,I don't know what I'll say

But I'll never stop loving you each and every day.

I love euu da KATTAE!!!

17.12.09

Happy 9th m0nth Anniversary baby...

Angelina l0ves Dinesh!

2009-12-03T06:09:00.000-08:00

Tavitthidam pothu aaruthalai unmadi saigiren...

Kaalam thorum nenjil vaalum unthan kadhal ngabangal thinam thinam...

I can't help it...i want u baby...

2009-12-03T05:57:00.000-08:00

I don't think i could take the sleepless nights anymore

The lil tears that roll down my eyes everytime I hear our love song

The way my heart feels when every thought of you come through my mind

Baby....I need you right now...wanna cuddle up in your arms...

Where I will always feel safe knowing that you're always there

I need you honey....right now...

Every m0ment 0f my life....

2009-12-03T05:51:00.000-08:00

Baby every moment of my life i just wanna spent it with you...

Do I love you? My god if your love were a grain of sand,

Mine would be a universe of beaches...

My little baby prince

2009-11-22T07:18:00.001-08:00

As much as I l0ve my baby Kattae I will l0ve y0u t0o

My little Jonathan kutti..

Y0u're that little sweet boy that made my heart smile & melt when I first saw y0u

Your lil hugs your sweet lil kisses

The way you say lil funny things & give that cute smile.

My lil Ben-10 hero..

And the best part about you is baby when you fall asleep that lil cute eyes of

yours that cute smile still shows on your face.

Jonathan you're the most adorable thing.

I will always l0ve euu.

Miss you bby!

My man..

2009-11-22T07:14:00.000-08:00

No other man would ever make me feel so right

It's nice to smile when I get your phone calls at night

But I'd rather have you here with me,right next to me

I miss the way you hold me tight...

Kattae Dinesh i l0ve y0u!

Kanavellam Neethane

2009-11-21T00:37:00.000-08:00

Kanavellam Neethane Vizhiyea Unakkae Uyiraanae

Ninaivellam Neethane Kalaiyathe Yugham Sugam Thaane...

Missing ya b0y..

2009-11-21T00:29:00.000-08:00

Baby I realli wish I could have you by me n0w

Missing ya manyy manyy honey

Can't wait till I see ya baby

379 days left

I need y0u

I want you

Right now...

Fuck off BITCH

2009-11-18T01:26:00.000-08:00

Y0u fucking BITCH!! d0n't call me a SLUT when you are one.

Who the fuck are you to tell me I can't upload Jonathan's picx.

He doesn't belong to you, you don't own him alright.

He's my boyfrend's nephew i have all the rights.

So you quit behaving like a lame fuck.

And quit the whole drama shit you're trying to do

And please Jonathan is never gonna hate me alright.

I will l0ve my little gunda and so will he

So deal with it la fuckface.

If you can fight for Jonathan so can I alright.

Happy 8th m0nth h0ney!!

2009-11-16T11:12:00.000-08:00

Happy 8th m0nth anniversay babyb0y...As usual I'm missing you with all my heart and not being able to hold you is the hardest part. Loving you alot alot many many my baby Dinesh.

Not gonna care what the world has to say....

2009-11-16T01:55:00.000-08:00

Nobody wanna see us togetherBut it don't matter noCause I got you babeNobody wanna see us togetherBut it don't matter no Cause I got you baby Cause we gon' fightOh yes we gon' fight(We gon' fight)Believe we gon' fight(We gon' fight)

Fight for our right to love yeah Nobody wanna see us together But it don't matter no Cause I got you baby Nobody wanna see us together But it don't matter no Cause I got you baby Nobody wanna see us together But it don't matter no Cause I got you baby Cause we gon' fight Oh yes we gon' fight(We gon' fight) Believe we gon' fight(We gon' fight)

Fight for our right to love yeah Nobody wanna see us together But it don't matter no Cause I got you baby.

Bladyy haters

2009-11-16T01:44:00.000-08:00

Baby nobody wanna see us together, but it don't matter..cos I got you...

For the people who's got a problem with us being together

just mind your fucking bussiness. It's none

of your problem. He's mine...

we will be happy as one.

So don't try to break as apart

cos it's not gonna work.

I love him & he l0ves me too

Just deal with it.

To the bitches haha

FUCK OFF!!!

Never f0rgetting the m0ments..

2009-11-13T05:11:00.001-08:00

Naan Unnai marakavae maatain ep0luthum enn etheyathil

Unakku 0ru edam erukkum...

Ennai vittu neeum sendry..

Unnai vittu naan yengu p0vaen0..

Kanavilum unnai sumanthain...

S0gathaium inbathaium ennakku nee

ahrimugam seithai...

I want y0u boi...

2009-11-12T08:15:00.000-08:00

And no matter how hard I cry, he isn’tgoing to pop up and show me it was just a joke

You mean so much to me. I just wish I could tell you now but I would never be able to find the words without breaking down

Love is almost like suicide. You give so much to that special someone that you sometimes end up killing yourself inside

Can't help it you are always within me...

2009-11-12T08:02:00.000-08:00

S0metimes I feel like screaming at y0u & telling h0w much I hate y0u..But at that very m0ment & second the th0ughts 0f h0w l0ving & caring y0u were t0 me c0mes flashing in my mind that is when I totally f0rgive y0u & start falling f0r y0u again...cal this l0ve 0r madness...hais...

Do I still l0ve y0u?

Baby yes I d0....

My Baby Jonathan...

2009-11-09T02:03:00.000-08:00

I want my baby Jonathan*gunda* n0w!! Miss u kutti..Seeing y0u smile & y0ur n0tti little acts always brings happiness t0 me can't wait t0 see ya...My little ben-10 her0...just wanna cuddle euu tightly...

I still l0ve u...

2009-11-09T02:02:00.000-08:00

When y0u were with me i didn't fear f0r anything 0r any0ne because I had y0u by me, But n0w that y0u're g0ne every lil things bring fear t0 me..I d0n't have that strength & pr0tecti0n i had when y0u were with me...I miss euu b0i..

when will y0u ever understand the pain...

2009-11-09T02:01:00.000-08:00

A life with0ut l0ve is way better than a life with l0ve. I d0n0 why y0u did th0ose things but I als0 did my mistakes. and n0w 0ur l0ves is a big 'questi0n mark'? I've g0t many things 0n my mind right n0w.H0pe we can s0rt things 0ut..when y0u're 0ut.

I'm l0ving y0u s0 much b0i...

2009-10-03T08:13:00.000-07:00

ne Special Star

Our hearts are one

Even when we are far

Our life is held together

By one special star

You talk to me

And I'll talk to you

Through the star

Our words will get through

The sun is setting

The sky is getting darker

While you're out there

Let our star be your marker

Every night I'll look up

To that star in the night

When I see it shin bright

I'll know you're alright

In the twinkle of

The stars bright shine

I'll see your eyes

And you'll see mine

If the star

Begins to cry

The rain will fall

And you'll know why

It is because

I'm missing you

And the star saw fit

To share my tears with you too

Our hearts are one

Even when we are far

Our life is held together

By one special star

Frend d0n't always stay...

2009-08-05T06:57:00.000-07:00

t0day when I was thinking about all my frends, I realized that people come and go in my life i've known many who came and left i've knew few who came but never did left, when a special frend came into my life, i've always thought that he would always be there, that he will never leave but i guess tat at times life is unfair because we don't always get what we want, the ones who we cherish the most are the ones who will be there but will leave us when we need them they most. but well never forget the ones who leave because they are the ones who will make a great impact into our lives and make us never forget them even if we try. But no matter how they left without knowing how they hurt us every little moment spent with them is a great memory never to be forgotten and they will always be treasured deeply in our hearts and their memories will be little footprints in our lives. this poem was written for a special frend I do not wish to say his name but he should know who he is because he has this msg....

Bobbi Br0wn...

2009-08-05T06:54:00.000-07:00

Wow...Bobbi Brown line of makeup are the best! something really different compare to the other makeups the have colour matching to our skin ton. The lip-gloss omg! just l0ve it. Eyeshadow just simply amzing I think I gonna stick to this brand I think it's the best so far.

Frends are cl0se t0o mua heart....

2009-07-22T04:23:00.000-07:00

I g0t to know a new friend!! well...i kinda made few friends well firstly was y0ga he's super funny i lubb his smile he's a super nice guy someone different from others...next is shalini she added me in friendster i helped her edit her picx & now we are good friends i'm kinda glad new friends brings smiles to my face. It's interesting to know new people around me...a small world with many people around me.....=)

Happy 4th m0nth Anniversary 17.07.09

2009-07-14T03:58:00.000-07:00

I awake each day with a smile and greet it with a laugh the world is a treasure to me because of you every time I thing of something sad I replace thought with you my mind is instantly changed and my heart is filled with gladness every breath I take is meant for you I live this life surrounded in joy and I bathe in the promise of your love my soul belongs to you each time I see something beautiful I want to take it bring it to you my life has so much meaning now all because of you =) Every anniversary I stand by your side taking photos but these few anniversary's I'm taking picx on mua own baby I realli miss you honey =(

Baby I dieing without you haiz!!!

2009-07-14T03:57:00.000-07:00

Baby I did this while eating M&M's hehex. =)

Happy 3rd m0nth Anniversary babyb0ii 17.06.09

2009-07-14T03:52:00.000-07:00

Happy 3th m0nth anniversary honey. Everyday spent with you makes me feel super special honey. I love ya so much. But without you by my side just makes me wanna cry boy. On our 1st anniversary everything was perfect but after our 2nd n now 3rd we are apart but I know things will be fine soon baby just hang in there alritex. Distance doesn't matter honey is the love that counts so even though we may never see each other for along our love will always be strong is just a little while baby just hold on kiiex. I love you so much missing ya many many cutestuff huggs & kisses =) Angelina love Dinesh....

Happy Birthday baby!! 18 June 2009

2009-07-14T03:07:00.000-07:00

Happy 19th Birthday babyb0ii....I l0ve ya ch0o much h0ney although we are n0t able to celebrate y0ur birthday just h0pe u'll have a smile on ya face. Hope all ya wishes & dreams come true be a good boii alritex honey no fighting remember that.I'm missing ya so much with all mua heart cutestuff. Will come see ya soon alritex. Once you're out than we can celebrate your birthday big big kiiex lubb ya sweets mucks =)

I hate this day 14 June 09

2009-07-14T02:57:00.000-07:00

Today was like a very stupid day I just don't want to talk about but I learned that don't trust everyone & don't respect everyone because they will never live up to their standards my dad bought for me a hp it was only 2weeks ago that I got it and 1 guy by the name of Sasi stole it and the best part his I will call him brother haiz I miss my hp so much I can't beleive people are like that the world is super evil but what goes around comes around so gd luck for that person

Dance Arena

2009-07-14T02:44:00.000-07:00

Today was kind of a fun day I went for a show at chong pang cc didn't really wanted to go but my friends forced me to haha. I only went there like around 7.45pm to my shock there were many people at that show wow many many keke. Before the show I was like shopping at sun plaza buying clothes coz I wanted to wear that for the show I was finding for this black & red shorts but didn't manage to get it onli got the brown & red so I wear that & 1 black top with a cardigan on top. And ya back to my monkey friend he made me walk inside the hall when everyone was like sitting ready omg super embrassing couldn't take it haha. Than I saw my brothers all outside I mean g0d-brothers. So i was talking to them all than after than show I went to overnight with some of my friends super funny we were playing true & dare that was really very funny the dares that some of them got hahaha. One guy had to actually go up to a old man & grab whatever he had on his hands and run away than give it back to him haha the old man has like chasing him haha. The whole night was super funny. Than around 7am onli i went home but I got a call from 1 of my so called brothers Sasi saying he's coming yishun.......

Day By Day Love

2009-06-06T07:16:00.000-07:00

I'm going through a pain that makes me think i would live another day.Try to pull through day by day is a big challenge for me.Everyday a bigger pain in me comes & makes me weaker every min every sec trying not to give in to the pain is so hard but baby i dying inside i thought i could be strong but i'm a lilttle weak than i thought i need you now i need you forever although it is a long time that i'm not gonna have you little by little your love strengtens me little by little i gain hope to be strong again.I know i've made a promise & that's the only thing that is makiing me go another day I know the love you have on me & the trust to.I am a girl & i will finish what I start I came into your life showed you love and till the end i will fullfill my promises & i will be with you till the end it is a very very hard thing to do there will be other people who would try to come into the picture & cause confustion but just 1 song 1 word makes me love you deeply again & again boii 24mths many seem like 24years but in this 24mths we will know where our love stand how strong is our love there will be worries as we can't be there for each other for gd & bad but in our hearts we stay the small gdbye was as painful as could be but i know even though we never show each other the pain the feeling is so pain baby i understand but i will always love you i said this in other realatonships i'm sure you did too but baby our love stays strong forever & forever no matter what others say or do i will always love you..

I miss everything in you

2009-06-04T04:29:00.000-07:00

I miss you hugs I miss you kisses I miss your smile I miss touch I miss your love I miss your care But most of all baby I miss all the times that you were there....

Baby Days I Like Years

2009-06-04T04:21:00.000-07:00

Baby I didn't know how it will be till i knew that i will not be able to see you for another 518days i heart fell totally into the sea i just could not accept the face i won't have you you by my side babyboii i miss you so so so much i don't know how i gonna go day by day without you & your love after so many days i saw you the pain was like a arrow piercing my heart i didn't feel the pain at first when i saw you it got more & more painful every sec i tried to not cry but baby when you said that little goodbye i could not take the pain boy i just broke down it tears i really could not do anything i was just in a shocked thinking i would live breath & go another day i could not speak i could not even say i word i don't know what will i do without you I'm trying my best to go another day baby i love you so much dear.Till you are out i will cry the million tears for you.you will always be deep in my heart no one will ever take the special spot that you have bi i gave you that promise in the beginning & i will give it to you now.I true love is only for you babyb0ii muckxx i love you dinesh!! =)

Baby n0t haviing eUu here by My side...

2009-05-22T07:42:00.000-07:00

Baby...I realli miss you so much h0ney it has been 8days sence I saw you.S0 much of feelings in my heart but no ways to express it to you.So hard to not think about you every single thing i see & do seems to be reminding me of you.Every night dreams of you fill my head.All the sleepless nights that I had.B0ii I just miss you so much.Every night tears fill my eyes reminding me of all the memories we shared the l0ve you filled my heart with all huggs that made me feel so loved your hugs that made me feel warm in yur arms.Telling me in silents how much you love me.Your kisses that make me go speachless.Just by kissing you I can see the stars.Your kisses make me go wild.b0ii you just mean so much to me.Just so much of love u filled my life i just can't explain how much u change my life.You beleived in me when they rest did not.You choose me when every1 dumped me & broke my heart.You thought me how to trust your love & how much you love me you showed me what is love & you said you love me.Just being by y0ur side makes everything alritex.When I cry you always comfort me with all the loving words & make me smile.Little naughty things you do make me angry but than love you show me makes me forgive you everytime again as I know without you I will not live another day.I'm sorry if I hurt you in anyway.I just want you to know I will always love you the same & infact more & more baby.I may not be able to have you by my side,not hug you,not kiss you,not share my happiness & sadness with you at the moment but baby I promise you that you are always in my heart & in my thoughts I in my prayers.It's very hard to go by the next day but just trusting on the love day by day helps a little bit to pull through the day.I realli miss you so much just by typing this tears fill my eyes bringing all little memories that we shared baby we have been together till our 2nd anniversary I pray to god that he will bless us & our relationship & give up joy & happiness help us to understand one another & strengthen or love help us not to fight but to love & care for one another & that should be one one coming between our realationship our entire life & that we should have a happy love life & soon a happy family...I love you with all my heart I can't wait to see you b0ii. hearts your wifey loves u always & forever =))

Baby I will wait for euu...

2009-05-17T02:48:00.000-07:00

Happy 2nd Anniversary Baby

2009-05-16T09:36:00.000-07:00

Happy 2nd Anniversary Baby!! Even though euu are not by my side && we can't celebrate it together now I just want euu to know i love you with all my heart && i will wait till euu are out & we shall have a big celebration together love you so much with all my heart baby ma I just love & miss you so much i want you by my side miss euu alot ma =))

Missing You So Much

2009-05-16T09:25:00.000-07:00

14 May 09 baby today was a really hard day for me b0ii.After about a week i finally got to see you but i could not talk to you i was finding so hard i thought i was strong but in me i found my weakness.I went to meet my guy's family at his place from there we took a bus to court we waited there for his case to start soon his friends all started coming it was hard as his mum was very sad as he was going to go in.I so not so effected at the moment but after i saw his mum in tears i could not take it.When i saw him the only thing i could think of was how was I gonna live without him it was hard at first a very painful feeling i kept thinking of the ways he use to show me love the way he use to hugg kiss me everything kept running through my mind it was such a painful feeling that brought tears to my eyes. I felt so sad & hurt but he has always told me to be strong & that even tat he's not around i will have to be strong i will wait till my baby's out till than his slients is wht is gonna make me strong all they way baby i love euu...next court case on 3 June can't wait to see euu baby ma!! =)

Babyy This S0ng Ish f0r Euu....

2009-05-12T04:58:00.000-07:00

Un Mugam Paarththey Naan Ezhuvean
Un Kural Keattaal Naan Arivean
Un Nizhaludaney Naan Varuvean
Punnagai Seidheal Uyir Vaazhuvean
Purakkaniththaal Naan Ennaavean
Kattae Engey Naan Povean

Bby euu n0tti b0ii

2009-05-12T04:49:00.000-07:00

I can't beleive my boyfrend actually lied to me just because he was goiing in soon.But in that lie i realised how much love he had on me well resently me & my boyfrend broke up bec he told me he had another girlfriend i was totally shock as there was nothing wrong between us no fights nothing so when he said such a thing i was going mad i did things to harm myself i just was so shocked i could not take it but after few days try to talk things out with him i finally realiesd that because he was gonna go in for a long time he didn't wanted me to waste my time & wait for him so he said such a thing to make me angry & try to forget him but i had so much love on him that i knew something was wrong & to my surprice i found out that he really did love him i was so touched & i also found out i was gonna have a baby...which is abit of a problem now.I tried talking things out with my boyfriend well he feels it's up to me because both way he said he will takecare SO yaa abit of problems at the moment.But through all this problems just by thinking of my babyb0ii makes things so much better b0ii i love euu alot alot I miss ya so much

2009-04-23T06:08:00.000-07:00

I Love You Lotx

2009-04-23T06:06:00.001-07:00

I Love You
I Love You
I Love You
I Love You
I Love You
I Love You Kattae!!!!

Big Desition

2009-04-23T05:57:00.000-07:00

Well I've made a decition to cover up the tatoo of my ex name because I know that pass is pass & I've forgotton every feeling & memories I've throw in all away I'm strong inside know no matter what he says coming back to me I will only love kattae & I will only be with him I had to think but i made this big desition because i really love kattae with all my heart & it's not nice to have a ex's name as a tatoo when u are att with yur future husband so my parents are very glad i made this decition I'm also happy I made this decition & i also gonna get another tatoo on my tummy hooray i love tatoo can't wait to get them so excited cheers to tme hooray!!! My baby is also gonna overnight at my home tmr we are gonna watch a new movie with my mum too love euu boii can't wait too see ya tmr dear muckssss =)

Baby Where Euu Go Missing !!!

2009-04-23T05:28:00.000-07:00

On tue my baby went totally missing i was super worried i had no idea what was going on i was like going mad i called him so many times msges calls none were replyed i was so scared my heart was like beating so badly i went super stress that made me imagine many things so i hugged my pooh bear i was in my room crying i didn't know wht to do i realised how much i love him how much he mean to me not toking to him just 1 day how it feels i was so scared i starting to cut my hand i went mad i overdose pills i was afraid he would not tok to me any more but i know everything was ok bec he was toking to me normally the day back so i try think of the positive things but the pills i overdose made me had bad headache & wormiting so i had to see a doctor i went to a hospital & the doctor said i was going through depresstion again bec of my pass i had many problems i was weak & under medication & now again haixx i didn't go school my teachers were dead worried abt me bec i could not study in class i will cut my hand so i had to have lessons at home all this realli affected me deeplly but i still had so much love & hope on him knowing he's not gonna just leave me like tat deep in me i know he loves me no matter what he could have done..bec i had a phone cal from a long time ago frends saying her sis got to know my guy he said he was single all this affected me alot but when i realised that he didn't accept that he did any of that he though i had prove he did it he still lied but the lies he said realli made me fall in love with me so much bec for a moment i never took the lie as a bad thing but as a good thing bec i felt that the lie he said was to cover up not to hurt me even he did something wrong if he had admitted it it would have crashed me but at the same time he said he loved me alot that kept me going all the way i know people make mistakes i mean everyone does but not everyone will take the time to forgive the one they love even if the thing they did hurt really badly but for me i made him a promise that "I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU BOO NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO I'LL ALWAYS BE WITH YOU" I made this very promise to him that even if what he did was verry wrong i would love him the same all the way & throw behind the pass & forgive what he did...bec at this young age guys tend to mingle around even if they know they have found the gal they are gonna marry they will never hurt that gal in anyway but boys will be boys & that was what i learn tat I know even he does things behind my back he loves me with all his heart & his love is realli very special to me..b0ii i love euu so much...just don't go missing again lolx love u honey! =)

Happy Anniversary Baby

2009-04-20T23:19:00.001-07:00

Getting Readi For The Big Day...

2009-04-20T23:08:00.000-07:00

Today was a fun day because I was out busy at bugis getting my baby his anniversary gift well i was a lil confused on what to get him but when i had a idea i decided to get him clothes hehex well i had a huge problem finding the shop he wanted the clothes from but at last i manage to get them...I got him a 3/4 pants from crossover & a t-shirt from spade i didn't know if he would like the t-shirt but it was very nice & i also got him a lil patrick bean doll & intead of a card i did a book that has every lil memories & feelings of him i had frm the day i met him till now...Rather than a card i think this book has more memories...So i went to his home after my school for the surprise he was asleep that lil piglet hehex so i had to get him up than i gave him his gift he was happy i can see & i was glad he liked what i got him...That whole day was a beautiful wonderful day just by his side in his arms...i felt very loved having him all day...baby i love you...

One & Onli Love

2009-04-09T04:36:00.001-07:00

There are just so many words But I can't find one that's perfectly true.
I have said lots of I love yous Have given you lots of kisses and hugs I have given you my all But still those are just not enough.
You're the only one I desire You're the only one in my heart Through good and bad times Nothing can keep us apart.

Kattae I Love You

2009-04-09T04:32:00.000-07:00

I never really know how you feel I can't read your mind I just keep waiting Take me to your heart Show me where to start Let me play the part of your first love.
Oh, I know down deep you love me But are you ever gonna love me The way I love you?

When I Look At You Baby

2009-04-09T04:30:00.000-07:00

A look from you is as blinding as the sun, As stunning as your eyes I lose myself in. A look from you is as pure as the clear blue sky, When I'm with you.
Every minute I'm not around you, I feel like I left something behind. Every time I'm not looking at you, I feel like I am blind.

Kattae I Love You

2009-04-09T04:29:00.001-07:00

I keep thinking of you and I wish on a star that, somewhere, you are thinking of me, too!
Sweet dreams of love, of us holding each other tight and whispering the essence of our loving beings...
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be than here in my room, dreaming about you and me!

I Love Euu B0iii

2009-04-09T04:00:00.000-07:00

You are my description of love You are my description of friend You are my description of everything You are my description of beginning to end.
You have put me on a pedestal You make me feel ten feet tall You've always been there for me You've loved me through it all.
You've stood by me through thick and thin You've always been patient and kind Just thought I'd let you know You're the owner of this heart of mine.
So you ask how long I'll love you Well this is what I have to say Past, present, future, always Forever and a day...

Meeting In Laws Time...keke

2009-03-31T01:47:00.000-07:00

Well i really didn't know that my babyboii will intro me to his parents this fast in was only about few days sence we went on but he introing me to his parents was a really touching thing in my life no guy has ever than that well most of them really did played cards with my life & really had hurt me so much but kattae is super sweet his family is like super wonderful & sweet they are very nice & being around them makes mi feel really loved...i'm really happy because i feel that he's the biggest birthday gift for me kattae i love euu ma...=))

It's a beginning of a new love

2009-03-31T01:40:00.000-07:00

Passing all the pain & sorrow I found a new life & a new love...knowing that cryin over spill milk is not worth...i decided to forget the pass knowing that bustards will always be bustards they will never change...so i moved on with a smile on my face...after my birthday i found my new love this special guy caught my eye on my birthday he's kattae...after my birthday on 17 march i met my new love having the thinkin that all guys are they same after knowing him i realised that even though many guys are like that now i can say not all guys are the same so it was love at first sight....he's just something very super special...I love kattae lotx he's mua darlink babyboii....well i feel that he's the one that i'm gonna spent my life...with

Baby Will It Work Out??

2009-02-19T23:31:00.000-08:00

Im going to smile like Im not falling apart,
Laugh like my hearts not breaking,
Pretend Im living in a dream
And act like the pain isn't killing me inside.
But the loneliness tears at my heart
Its weaving a web around me so tight
Like a drug I cannot escape
Its taking over my life
Im addicted to you
You're the weapon I use
But now its gone to far
Ripping apart my chest
It leaves me empty inside
I try to walk away
But Im bound to this pain
So use me, abuse me
Im dying anyway
Its killing me for sure
Destroying me from the inside out
But I cant convince my heart
It hides the pain from the world
So with a smile Im killing myself
So leave me here alone to die
Just one more shot
I can take it I swear
I promise you wont see me cry

Sleepless Nights....

2009-02-12T03:34:00.001-08:00

This yearning in my heart
This confusion in my mind
The words left unspoken
Haunts me all the time
Everyday I watch pass by
With an emptiness in my life
And a hole in my heart
Where only you belong
There are nights I wake up crying
And wishing you were here
To hold me in your arms
And kiss away my tears
There is something that keeps me holding on -
What I'll never know
But one day things will go my way
And I'll have you in my arms

I rather be alone...

2009-02-12T03:33:00.001-08:00

I wish I could tell you
The words from my heart
but every time I look at you
I can't seem to start
I know that these words
Might chase you away
And if that's true
I don't think I want you to stay
When you lie own next to me
Your body turns to stone
And I realize
I'd rather be lonely alone

I Knew You Would Love Me Too...

2009-02-12T03:32:00.001-08:00

The only happiness i have is in you .
Yet the only tears i ever shed is when we're apart .
midnight so soothing and fully warm only brings comfort , but even so your the only one that moves me .
i'm amazed by what you do .
the sun works day and night working its way up and down .
So do i , trying to keep us on ground .
you promised me the only thinq i love to hear .
i can only ask and you reply what i love to know but when will it hurt like i expected .
I feel your leaving me smashing me into the gutter , as if now you left to another .
And when all truth lies out and i see you broken . .
i'm going to hold the heart i thought i had . . & and lead my own way . . i wish you stayed .

Will I be able to forget you??

2009-02-12T03:29:00.000-08:00

Trying to find someone new
just to get over you
you said I will never find
anyone like you
The feelings i once had
will never be the same
you left me in agony
and you left me in pain
I realise now
that i dont need you
so why was i up every night
crying over you
You had me in a spell
but no more will i dwell
over what we had
for memories now
are just too sad
You never cared about
what i had to say
the only thing you cared about
was having it your way
But let me tell you something
I HAVE found someone new
and believe me his nothing like YOU.
For you will forever be in my heart
even though we are apart.....

I'm Lost Without You

2009-02-12T03:26:00.000-08:00

You're in my head again
And you refuse to leave
Thinking about you hurts
Instead of bring me relief
You invaded my mind
And took off with my heart
I didn't fight to keep it
Now light less, I'm fading into the dark
I still love you but I hate you
How can I feel both
You broke into my inner thoughts
And ran off with my soul
Now I am a hollow being
Living lifeless and all alone
An undead zombie with no meaning
Who is longing to be whole

You can't change the pain I went through

2009-02-12T03:17:00.000-08:00

I cant change my mood
cant shake how i feel
my heart has been broken
this time it wont heal
Nothing is alright
and everything feels wrong
i lived my life with him
like the lyrics of a song
I fell in love with a boy
who cheated on me
but i opened my eyes
and his deceit i did begin to see
So i found a boy
that would treat me right
One that wouldn't use me
just for some fun for the night
But of course i was happy
so it all fell apart
we made the decision
and it broke my heart
We called it quits
just like that it was the end
and to the very pits of hell
my heart he did send.
Only 2 weeks later
now that we were done
A new girl cam along in his life
and became his special one
He's no longer mine to hold
no longer mine to kiss
i cant stand the fact
its not my hands on his hips
so now he is gone
and the tears will forever fall
All because i lost
my everything, my all

Pretend

2009-02-12T03:02:00.000-08:00

Pretend that you're happy
Pretend you're ok
Pretend you're independent
Pretend he didn't hurt you today
Pretend as if he's not worth it
Like he's missing out on someone great
Although he was your life
Happiness has to be your state
Find it in your heart
Or at least what's left of it
Make everyone believe
Don't hate life enough to quit
Pretend everytime you see him
It doesn't rip you apart
To know he loves her now
She's his new work of art
Pretend he never loved you
Pretend you don't need him to be ok
Pretend he wasen't the reason
Why your world was lost today

This is how I feel Day by Day...My advice to the wonderful soft hearted girls out there...
Forget the fuckers who spoiled your life try to at least "Pretend" you don't care about these bustards!!

Where is my Star??

2009-02-12T02:46:00.000-08:00

Laying here tonight with the sky above my head
Why must it be another lonely night
Everyone tells me about all the people I have
But I don't have that 1 special person to hold I know I have alot of friends, But I just wish for that 1 special boy that 1 that I can spoil forever And make him feel like he means the world Oh little star shinning so bright what can I do To make this dream come true I always wanted to find My Perfect Star but I've run out of all things left to do There goes a shooting star across the sky Maybe this will be the wish I've been waiting for. Is my star going to finally come into my life? Or do I have to continue waiting more....

Love is a painful game

2009-01-30T22:36:00.000-08:00

It's a crazy thing called Love

2009-01-29T07:06:00.000-08:00

29 Jan 09
Never say I love you if you really don't care,never talk about feelings if they aren't really there,
Never hold my hand if you are gonna break my heart,never say you are going to if you never plan to start.Never look into my eyes if all you do is lie, never say hi if you really mean goodbye
If you really mean forever than say you will try never say forever because forever makes me cry...

Wow what a Day

2009-01-29T06:58:00.000-08:00

28 Jan 09

Today was kiinda wanderful day I went to school today my classes were at jurong so damm far.I was super sleppy that I went late for class so boring classes.I had Bio & tamil class so freaking stupid subject but Bio is kinda fun hehe I was just waiting for the classes to actually finish after class our break time me & my friend Radah went IMM to longjohn slivers to eat & we had some conversations & stuff.She's just a sweetheart she's such a sweet & nice girl ..we were suppse to go for tamil class but we skipped class & went to meet a friend of Radah's..& he happen to be bro of my friend hehe...Yup & his name is Appu...He's super cute & very funny almost all the way i was laughing like some retard he keep saying things which were super funny haha...he's also super adorable...keke...very nice person i got to know...&& i'm goiing out with him tmr hooray!! it's a date...winks blushes...can't waiit...

Love Is Blind

2009-01-29T06:53:00.001-08:00

True Love is when you shed a tear and still want him.It's when he ignores you and you still love him.
It's when he loves another but you still smile and say "I'm happy for you" when all you really do is cry...and cry....

Poems...

2009-01-29T06:44:00.000-08:00

27 Jan 09
I keep thinking of how much I love talking to you
How good you look when you smile,how much I love your laugh
I daydream about you off & on,replaying the pieces of our conversation,Laughing at funny things that you said or did
I've memorized your face & the way that you look at me
I catch myself smiling again at what I imagine..
I wonder what will happen the next time we are together,
And even though neither of us know what the future holds,
I know one thing for sure you are the best thing that ever happen to me && I LOVE YOU =)))