love

Baby Will It Work Out??

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Im going to smile like Im not falling apart,
Laugh like my hearts not breaking,
Pretend Im living in a dream
And act like the pain isn't killing me inside.
But the loneliness tears at my heart
Its weaving a web around me so tight
Like a drug I cannot escape
Its taking over my life
Im addicted to you
You're the weapon I use
But now its gone to far
Ripping apart my chest
It leaves me empty inside
I try to walk away
But Im bound to this pain
So use me, abuse me
Im dying anyway
Its killing me for sure
Destroying me from the inside out
But I cant convince my heart
It hides the pain from the world
So with a smile Im killing myself
So leave me here alone to die
Just one more shot
I can take it I swear
I promise you wont see me cry

♥ 11:31 PM

Sleepless Nights....

Thursday, February 12, 2009

This yearning in my heart
This confusion in my mind
The words left unspoken
Haunts me all the time
Everyday I watch pass by
With an emptiness in my life
And a hole in my heart
Where only you belong
There are nights I wake up crying
And wishing you were here
To hold me in your arms
And kiss away my tears
There is something that keeps me holding on -
What I'll never know
But one day things will go my way
And I'll have you in my arms

♥ 3:34 AM

I rather be alone...

I wish I could tell you
The words from my heart
but every time I look at you
I can't seem to start
I know that these words
Might chase you away
And if that's true
I don't think I want you to stay
When you lie own next to me
Your body turns to stone
And I realize
I'd rather be lonely alone

♥ 3:33 AM

I Knew You Would Love Me Too...

The only happiness i have is in you .
Yet the only tears i ever shed is when we're apart .
midnight so soothing and fully warm only brings comfort , but even so your the only one that moves me .
i'm amazed by what you do .
the sun works day and night working its way up and down .
So do i , trying to keep us on ground .
you promised me the only thinq i love to hear .
i can only ask and you reply what i love to know but when will it hurt like i expected .
I feel your leaving me smashing me into the gutter , as if now you left to another .
And when all truth lies out and i see you broken . .
i'm going to hold the heart i thought i had . . & and lead my own way . . i wish you stayed .

♥ 3:32 AM

Will I be able to forget you??

Trying to find someone new
just to get over you
you said I will never find
anyone like you
The feelings i once had
will never be the same
you left me in agony
and you left me in pain
I realise now
that i dont need you
so why was i up every night
crying over you
You had me in a spell
but no more will i dwell
over what we had
for memories now
are just too sad
You never cared about
what i had to say
the only thing you cared about
was having it your way
But let me tell you something
I HAVE found someone new
and believe me his nothing like YOU.
For you will forever be in my heart
even though we are apart.....

♥ 3:29 AM

I'm Lost Without You

You're in my head again
And you refuse to leave
Thinking about you hurts
Instead of bring me relief
You invaded my mind
And took off with my heart
I didn't fight to keep it
Now light less, I'm fading into the dark
I still love you but I hate you
How can I feel both
You broke into my inner thoughts
And ran off with my soul
Now I am a hollow being
Living lifeless and all alone
An undead zombie with no meaning
Who is longing to be whole

♥ 3:26 AM

You can't change the pain I went through

I cant change my mood
cant shake how i feel
my heart has been broken
this time it wont heal
Nothing is alright
and everything feels wrong
i lived my life with him
like the lyrics of a song
I fell in love with a boy
who cheated on me
but i opened my eyes
and his deceit i did begin to see
So i found a boy
that would treat me right
One that wouldn't use me
just for some fun for the night
But of course i was happy
so it all fell apart
we made the decision
and it broke my heart
We called it quits
just like that it was the end
and to the very pits of hell
my heart he did send.
Only 2 weeks later
now that we were done
A new girl cam along in his life
and became his special one
He's no longer mine to hold
no longer mine to kiss
i cant stand the fact
its not my hands on his hips
so now he is gone
and the tears will forever fall
All because i lost
my everything, my all

♥ 3:17 AM

Pretend

Pretend that you're happy
Pretend you're ok
Pretend you're independent
Pretend he didn't hurt you today
Pretend as if he's not worth it
Like he's missing out on someone great
Although he was your life
Happiness has to be your state
Find it in your heart
Or at least what's left of it
Make everyone believe
Don't hate life enough to quit
Pretend everytime you see him
It doesn't rip you apart
To know he loves her now
She's his new work of art
Pretend he never loved you
Pretend you don't need him to be ok
Pretend he wasen't the reason
Why your world was lost today

This is how I feel Day by Day...My advice to the wonderful soft hearted girls out there...
Forget the fuckers who spoiled your life try to at least "Pretend" you don't care about these bustards!!

♥ 3:02 AM

Where is my Star??

Laying here tonight with the sky above my head
Why must it be another lonely night
Everyone tells me about all the people I have
But I don't have that 1 special person to hold I know I have alot of friends, But I just wish for that 1 special boy that 1 that I can spoil forever And make him feel like he means the world Oh little star shinning so bright what can I do To make this dream come true I always wanted to find My Perfect Star but I've run out of all things left to do There goes a shooting star across the sky Maybe this will be the wish I've been waiting for. Is my star going to finally come into my life? Or do I have to continue waiting more....

♥ 2:46 AM